As i rip of my clothes tonight
I cant help but wonder what you would think of me now.
I dont know how i live with myself
All the lies, dirt.
Its all within the skin now.
How do i clean off dirt that's never mean to come off?
How do you undo what you've done to someone?
As i stepped out of the pretty brown dress and into the shower.
I felt the water tingle my insides.
I sensed your hands all over me.
I pictured you holding me once again.
I heard the fights over and over again.
As the water trickled from my hair to my feet.
I imagined you next to me.
And how you would bite my ear playfully.
And how you would get upset if i didn't eat.
And how you didn't like lies.
As the urge of smoking crept up
I told myself i would hurt you if i did.
As i remembered all the times you beat yourself up for me
I felt dirtier as ever.
The skin on my body has never felt so unreal.
The calls are shorter by words, but lengthier by time.
The procession of "i love you" takes longer.
The ultimate dream talk would come before bye.
The talk of others would come as usual.
I want to feel real
And not a dirty selfless bitch
I dont want to be the useless toy anymore.
So save me from the depth of the sea.
And take me in.
Let the wrinkles of my body fade as the water continues pouring.
After my hair's dry.
Lets sit on the patio
With a cup of coffee
And talk about old time's sake.
Lets want something that we never had.
Let's have happiness without fighting over it.
As i put on my fresh clothes
I smell the scent of your perfume
And i smile to myself.
As i cleanse myself before facing you everyday.
I just want to be so perfect to you.
I want to step out of the comfort zone im in.
I want to leave the scarred tissue behind.
And start over new.
I want a new body
A new look
A new skin
A new vibe!
-Untouched-
I cant help but wonder what you would think of me now.
I dont know how i live with myself
All the lies, dirt.
Its all within the skin now.
How do i clean off dirt that's never mean to come off?
How do you undo what you've done to someone?
As i stepped out of the pretty brown dress and into the shower.
I felt the water tingle my insides.
I sensed your hands all over me.
I pictured you holding me once again.
I heard the fights over and over again.
As the water trickled from my hair to my feet.
I imagined you next to me.
And how you would bite my ear playfully.
And how you would get upset if i didn't eat.
And how you didn't like lies.
As the urge of smoking crept up
I told myself i would hurt you if i did.
As i remembered all the times you beat yourself up for me
I felt dirtier as ever.
The skin on my body has never felt so unreal.
The calls are shorter by words, but lengthier by time.
The procession of "i love you" takes longer.
The ultimate dream talk would come before bye.
The talk of others would come as usual.
I want to feel real
And not a dirty selfless bitch
I dont want to be the useless toy anymore.
So save me from the depth of the sea.
And take me in.
Let the wrinkles of my body fade as the water continues pouring.
After my hair's dry.
Lets sit on the patio
With a cup of coffee
And talk about old time's sake.
Lets want something that we never had.
Let's have happiness without fighting over it.
As i put on my fresh clothes
I smell the scent of your perfume
And i smile to myself.
As i cleanse myself before facing you everyday.
I just want to be so perfect to you.
I want to step out of the comfort zone im in.
I want to leave the scarred tissue behind.
And start over new.
I want a new body
A new look
A new skin
A new vibe!
-Untouched-
this is a quote from grey's anatomy. i just love the show!
Merideth - Ellen Pompeo
" I wish there were a rulebook for intimacy. Some kind of guide to tell you when you've crossed the line. It would be nice if you could see it coming, and I don't know how you fit it on a map. You take it where you can get it, and keep it as long as you can. And as for rules, maybe there are none. Maybe the rules of intimacy are something you have to define for yourself. ”
i'm in the middle of nowhere heading for a place called home. come help me find it before i find a way out of your life. come live with me and make me feel sane for the very last time. cause i love you!
Slip on the grey slippers baby!
Slip on the grey slippers baby!
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