" And as you stare, you wonder how you could ever do something so stupid. "So i'm not having a picture perfect day. I really have bad days. *woah* surprise surprise! anyways. these past couple of days have been extremely bad because i've been fighting with him. and i hate it! AHHH!. misunderstandings suck! anyways. i dont want to have to take a break, or have a time out like how i did when we were in 4th grade. It's painful to hurt someone right? yet somehow i do it alot. apparently i'm not the perfect girlfriend. or even close to it. well no denying it now. cause it turns out im the worst. so yeah! well. time after time. shit happens. and i guess i have a bad spell of it this time around. so you might as well spin the bottle one more time and see if it lands on a better person.
i get that i'm really dumb. and that i dont do well with conversing. until now. i thought i was pretty damn good. APPARENTLY NOT!. so anyways. here i am. blogging about my feelings all over again. i just need the time. to figure out for myself what i need to do and with who. i guess i need to re-think the whole friend thing again. cause i've just realized. i wrote his name down for no damned reason. so. yeah. i also need to know what i am to do with him.
wouldn't it be cool if there was a life-guide that could tell us what to do.. i swear. cow's are so cool compare to me right now! so. i started writing this way earlier. but stuff's happened in between. apparently. now i'm not fighting with him :D and we're on good terms. so false alarm people!
i wish it was you that was hurt. i wish it was you that was ignoring me. i wish i had the words to say that would just make everything better. yet. i have nothing to say. at all. i dont know what makes you think like i would know what to say to you right now. gah!
i have a feeling tomorrow is going to be a really long day. and that i wont have time to do everything that i have planned to do. how do you differentiate from right and wrong. when all your doing is living in the moment. are you not suppose to live in the moment.
what do i do when you turn around to me and say its over. do i drop everything and follow you to whatever journey you have planned out for yourself. do i follow along in your dreams like what you expect me to do?
do i move in with you. and is that when you will say that i'm not to young. will you ever let me live for the day and not make me feel like a useless fuck. will you ever tell me sweet serenities that will get me through the day without a doubt in my head.
will the expiry date creep up on me over the next few days. and suddenly kill me with a bomb when you have decided to leave. do i bear my heart & soul for you just to show you that i'm worth you're time and money?
how do i prove to someone i barely even know that i am good for him?
jenna has come up with a theory. if you haven't sucked on a lollipop in class before you're the age of 16 you're either socially retarded or downright stupid, because you have clearly missed out on the best thing in life. :) god. its us and our theories always.
i like books. where the character magically falls in love. thats my fairytale ending. no seriously. it's fucking cool to fall in love that way. so unexpectedly and spontaneously! it truly is amazing! so with half the dead people in the world right now. apparently lent has started. and dude. seriously. why was i not notified? :( i feel so left out from the circle! heh. whatever. so i have to give up something. so i'm going to ponder about it for the next decade or so. no in like the next 2 days or something.
I need a new book to read btw. because i just finished a really good book. i cried. but it was worth it. :) i like being me. sitting in a room all by myself, sitting up against the wall. nursing a cup of tea, and just reading a good book. although. john has a better idea of reading :) well. it's all the same. as long as it's a good book. i just realized. i have a weird choice of books. and i can say that because i'm talking about myself. so i think i should broaden my aspects and read things that are better. well. i am not sure what i would pick up and read. cause usually i get suggestions. but haha. those suggestions usually fall back on books i would read. so what would the difference be? not much right.
PS: I LOVE YOU written by Cecilia Ahern is a really good book. i admit. i cried and stuff. but heck with it. it was a really emotional book :) so LOVE ME FOR IT!. hahahaha. okay.lame. anyways.i love the way the author described the characters every emotion, and every looking. it feels like your actually there with the author imagining it. and the detail to this book was great, and thats what made it so great. well i really liked it. and i would recommend it to anyone who is willing to sit down and read great detail on the character's emotion right at that moment. and also those people who like books of hers. okay. so anyways. moving on. i cant wait till. easter holidays. massssive! :0. okay. im gonna go sleep. cause i'm waking moni up @ 7am for classes! :) i'm being good :)
and how cool can the Year 10's of 2007/2008 get? We called our Booth the Al-Jazeera Bakery. ITS SO COOL! and if the people who are working for us are out there. i will send you reminders on what time your shift is on. and i swear. you better show up. otherwise isra and i will make your lives living hell! :) we still loveeee you! (most of you)
to all the people who are making, bringing or buying something for the Al-Jazeera Booth on sunday. Please remember to.
1) Smile when you see the customers :)
2) Coupons must be collected in bundles of 10 ( no matter the amount )
3) one person has to be in charge of sales, and one person has to be in charge of coupons!
and and and btw!
COOKIES
CHOCOLATES
BROWNIES
ROCKY CHOC'S
DOMINOS
CAKE
DRINKS
- Mineral Water
- Coke
SANDWICHES
- Turkey
-Chicken
- Peanut Butter & Jelly
all the items above will be sold @ our booth :)
THANK YOU!
I LOVE HIM LIKE CRAZY FUCK
i get that i'm really dumb. and that i dont do well with conversing. until now. i thought i was pretty damn good. APPARENTLY NOT!. so anyways. here i am. blogging about my feelings all over again. i just need the time. to figure out for myself what i need to do and with who. i guess i need to re-think the whole friend thing again. cause i've just realized. i wrote his name down for no damned reason. so. yeah. i also need to know what i am to do with him.
wouldn't it be cool if there was a life-guide that could tell us what to do.. i swear. cow's are so cool compare to me right now! so. i started writing this way earlier. but stuff's happened in between. apparently. now i'm not fighting with him :D and we're on good terms. so false alarm people!
i wish it was you that was hurt. i wish it was you that was ignoring me. i wish i had the words to say that would just make everything better. yet. i have nothing to say. at all. i dont know what makes you think like i would know what to say to you right now. gah!
i have a feeling tomorrow is going to be a really long day. and that i wont have time to do everything that i have planned to do. how do you differentiate from right and wrong. when all your doing is living in the moment. are you not suppose to live in the moment.
what do i do when you turn around to me and say its over. do i drop everything and follow you to whatever journey you have planned out for yourself. do i follow along in your dreams like what you expect me to do?
do i move in with you. and is that when you will say that i'm not to young. will you ever let me live for the day and not make me feel like a useless fuck. will you ever tell me sweet serenities that will get me through the day without a doubt in my head.
will the expiry date creep up on me over the next few days. and suddenly kill me with a bomb when you have decided to leave. do i bear my heart & soul for you just to show you that i'm worth you're time and money?
how do i prove to someone i barely even know that i am good for him?
jenna has come up with a theory. if you haven't sucked on a lollipop in class before you're the age of 16 you're either socially retarded or downright stupid, because you have clearly missed out on the best thing in life. :) god. its us and our theories always.
i like books. where the character magically falls in love. thats my fairytale ending. no seriously. it's fucking cool to fall in love that way. so unexpectedly and spontaneously! it truly is amazing! so with half the dead people in the world right now. apparently lent has started. and dude. seriously. why was i not notified? :( i feel so left out from the circle! heh. whatever. so i have to give up something. so i'm going to ponder about it for the next decade or so. no in like the next 2 days or something.
I need a new book to read btw. because i just finished a really good book. i cried. but it was worth it. :) i like being me. sitting in a room all by myself, sitting up against the wall. nursing a cup of tea, and just reading a good book. although. john has a better idea of reading :) well. it's all the same. as long as it's a good book. i just realized. i have a weird choice of books. and i can say that because i'm talking about myself. so i think i should broaden my aspects and read things that are better. well. i am not sure what i would pick up and read. cause usually i get suggestions. but haha. those suggestions usually fall back on books i would read. so what would the difference be? not much right.
PS: I LOVE YOU written by Cecilia Ahern is a really good book. i admit. i cried and stuff. but heck with it. it was a really emotional book :) so LOVE ME FOR IT!. hahahaha. okay.lame. anyways.i love the way the author described the characters every emotion, and every looking. it feels like your actually there with the author imagining it. and the detail to this book was great, and thats what made it so great. well i really liked it. and i would recommend it to anyone who is willing to sit down and read great detail on the character's emotion right at that moment. and also those people who like books of hers. okay. so anyways. moving on. i cant wait till. easter holidays. massssive! :0. okay. im gonna go sleep. cause i'm waking moni up @ 7am for classes! :) i'm being good :)
and how cool can the Year 10's of 2007/2008 get? We called our Booth the Al-Jazeera Bakery. ITS SO COOL! and if the people who are working for us are out there. i will send you reminders on what time your shift is on. and i swear. you better show up. otherwise isra and i will make your lives living hell! :) we still loveeee you! (most of you)
to all the people who are making, bringing or buying something for the Al-Jazeera Booth on sunday. Please remember to.
1) Smile when you see the customers :)
2) Coupons must be collected in bundles of 10 ( no matter the amount )
3) one person has to be in charge of sales, and one person has to be in charge of coupons!
and and and btw!
COOKIES
CHOCOLATES
BROWNIES
ROCKY CHOC'S
DOMINOS
CAKE
DRINKS
- Mineral Water
- Coke
SANDWICHES
- Turkey
-Chicken
- Peanut Butter & Jelly
all the items above will be sold @ our booth :)
THANK YOU!
I LOVE HIM LIKE CRAZY FUCK
edit: your name featured in jail wouldn't be such a bad idea. and please. save your whipped ass story for someone who would care. and stop comparing yourself to people who could be your fucking sister in law. and loose the whole cool act shit before i literally slap you!
listening to: Vanessa Carlton - White Houses
feeling: fudge fuck shit muffins! (somyword)
obsession: red font
I cant resist the feeling of not running up to you and giving you a great big hug right now <3
listening to: Vanessa Carlton - White Houses
feeling: fudge fuck shit muffins! (somyword)
obsession: red font
I cant resist the feeling of not running up to you and giving you a great big hug right now <3
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