Drive

: I wouldn't be surprised if you'd up and gone one day at a time just to test my limits and see my perfection : *compliment taken*

I'm living in utter ignorance to your existance.
I'm taking you on a joyride and by the end of it. You'll get so sick of me being around you that you will eventually decide to call it quits.
I promise you :)
The elongated silence when you enter the room shall be broken with my outspoken-ness and my true sense of love and humor for you.
My pissing off moments with you have proven to be the best. It's almost like i feel most loved at those times.
Totally untrue.
Totally forsaken.
I give up.
Give you up.
:)
Oh how you're gleeing with joy now,and wishing you married me sooner.
Binge eating through a saturday night, and watching re-runs of the olden english comedy is so our thing.
Watching you dress up and look *muah* perfecto is something that i could definetly live for.
The horror of waiting till you come home half drunk, and when we're finally in bed, and when you're breathing heavily just after another round is something i know you can get used to.

For having to sit here and list out all the reasons why i love you is truly stupid.
To sit here and make fun of you and every aspect of you is what is so much more fun that the stupid " i love's " which if you have not forgotten. Is what you consider fake.




I attempt to let you go.
And everytime i do.
I draw you closer.
The deeper we get.
The harder it gets.
Longer the breaks.
More love re-appears.


I draw my last breath as i leave the room
I save the last scent on the underside of the beautiful gown i dine in tonight
I let go of the last kiss as you hold me tightly
I give up everything for anything you want as you utter in silence " I love you "




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I have amazing friends. No really i do.
I'll start with Wevind :)
Wevind has been my emo shit ever since sunday morning. And THANK YOU so much for that.eventhough you piece of dumb shit will never read this. I really really am appreciative for the hours you put into me.

Secondly. Isra :)
Hah. my gorgeous, pregnant ballerina friend. And also. the beautiful pakistani :) she's been my emo listener as well

Amanda :)
she has never failed to make a situation brighter by her what seems to her as a perfectly normal thing to say. but what turns out shits funny

Zuly :)
she listened to me bitch like for an hour last night. about me and my stupid problems. and we talked about ex's and some other stupid things.


I LOVE ALL OF YOU :)



Isra and Amanda created this song
And Benjamin and i edited it :)
enjoy

THE SMART SONG

Study with an 's', with a capital 'S'

Move with an 'm', with a capital 'M'

Achieve with an 'a', with a capital 'A'

Revise with an 'r', with a capital 'R'

Think with a 't', with a capital 'T'

Genre: Motivational

Performed by: The Birds


Created by: Amanda Loo and Isra Tariq

EDITED/EXPLICIT VERSION


Suck with an 's', with a capital 'S'

Moan with an 'm', with a capital 'M'

Anal with an 'a', with a capital 'A'

Rape with an 'r', with a capital 'R'

Tits with a 't, with a capital 'T'



okay so the edited version is stupid. but oh well. it was chemistry and we needed to enlighten the mood of studying :)

so this is OFFICIALLY the YEAR 10 AQUA song. and we have to memorize and sing it everyday. the non-explicit version of course :)








edit:


compassion was nothing new as you walked into my life, i accepted and took you in. but just sometimes do i regret every step i ever made. all of the steps i made with you.




listening to: Boys Like Girls - On Top Of The World



feeling: morose



craving: gummy bears







I want you to want me to need me and to love me. Really. Is that so hard? <3