See It Through My Eyes

......and if you reached ahead and grabbed me i would just stare at you like the space alien you are







Right now.
I have absolutely no feeling
Its been less than 24 hours that i've gone without having a proper conversation with you
And i'm already going crazy
Do you see how reliant i am on you now?
No seriously
You've become that thing that i didnt want you to become, and yet, i still cant admit it to you.



Is it out of fear?
Is it out of respect?
Is it out of due accusation?




My twinkle toes feeling have failed me
again
and it only does when it comes to you
which is disgustingly disturbing
i hate this
i dont hate you
and i dont wish for you to die
eventhough i quietly wished that today
so why dont you come get me now?
or message me
or better still call me.




I dont know what goes through your mind.
I dont know if you actually miss me.
I know i should believe you by now.
But its a bit hard after all those things you've said to me.
I should trust you.
I should respect whatever you want to do.
I mean, i do. But you usually do dumb things.
Doesnt me interfering in your life show you that i care for you?







I'm visiting my fairytale wonderland
where you and i are perfect
where we are extremely happy
and where you whisper sweet serenities into my ear and mean it
and the undiscoverable world where you dont think im useless




i dont know how to live like this
or how you do it either
i dont know how you think im so stupid
when i know exactly what you do
i dont know how you lie to me
when i know what you say to her
i dont know why i do this to you
or why i do it to myself.

i know my heart and it will never change
this temp work would be alright if you'd call me
you'd call me
i lay awake at night for you
and i pray

we'd cross the deepest oceans
cargo across the sea
and if you dont believe me
just put your hands on me

and all the constellations

shine down for us to see
and if you dont believe me
just put your hands on me

edit: is it times up yet?



listening to: Vanessa Carlton - Hands On Me



feeling: lost




obsession: nothing




craving: freedom





Unleash your chains from me, its time i take a step back and overview what i've done wrong <3