Blue Headlights

" Bon Apetit "

I saw your name up on the front of the line.
I peered over the crowd to find a seeming-less face starring straight ahead.
I followed your eye direction.
And it was a girl.
Not any girl.
The girl.
The competition.



You smiled and nodded towards our table at her.
I stood there.
Awe struck for words.



I turned around and walked right out of the cafe.
I left my books by the table i booked
And just walked out.
I couldn't stand to look at you.
I couldn't stand to hear what you had to say.



As i paced the halls,
turned to every corner and just ran.
Tears rolled down my cheeks,
my cheeks were flamy.
I felt like i could kill you.



As i ran, i thought of you.
And what you had told me the night before.
The way you looked me in the eye.
The way you touched me.



I couldn't believe i just had to see that
I couldn't believe i have to do it all over again.
I cant believe i'm in the same situation, with you.



Why do i believe your sweet words?
Why do i let you sweet talk me?
Why do i do this to myself for you?



I believed you changed
I believed you loved me
I believed you would do me good
I believed you for everything you said you were
I believed you for everything you said you would be
I believed you!



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English and Malay was alright
but thats what i always say about my malay paper.
i screwed up english literature
which i'm pissed about!

tomorrow's my math, accounting and my 4th malay paper.
i really hope i can do them
so good luck to me
and good luck to everyone else :)



edit: su casa mi casa


listening to: Vanessa Carlton - Hands On Me




feeling: lost




obsession: nothing




craving: coffee




You make me feel less of a person everyday <3