Oh Snap.

" Have you seen happiness at your doorstep? No? Really? Oh well, here we are :) "

You can feel people staring, it's like heart that rises from the pavement during the summer, like a poker in the small of your back.
You don't have to hear a whisper, either, to know that it's about you.

I used to stand in from of the mirror in the bathroom to see what they were staring at. I wanted to know what made their heads turn, what it was about me that was so incredibly different. At first couldn't tell. I mean, i was just me.

Then one day, when i looked in the mirror, i understood. I looked into my own eyes, and i hated myself, maybe as much as all of them did.

That was the day i started to believed they might be right.


'Jodi Picoult - Nineteen Minutes'


i feel like a lost bird at bay
i feel like i have nothing to live for
i feel like i should actually not take meds and consider death
i feel like your not the answer to my problems anymore
i feel like your my problem
i feel like i should kill myself
i feel like i should take a walk and hope that a car runs me over
i feel like this girl who has no soul and has lost her way in the woods
i feel like there is nothing you can say
i feel like i'm the useless one when you're the asshole
i feel like i should end this
i feel like it's not worth it
i feel like i shouldn't talk to you
i feel like i shouldn't say i love you
i feel like i should say goodbye now



"Goodbye"




edit: no where to go, no where to be seen.


listening to: Global Deejays - One Night In Bangkok


reading: your messages


obsession: cigarettes


feeling: shitty


craving: cigarettes



I'll take the fall as soon as your not looking <3


au revoir


- pregnant ballerina -