Kavin, one of a kind!

one step forward, three steps back.

that's how i function around you!
that's how i process with you!





unsure of what to say next or when to say it.


i weave my fingers around yours hoping to feel the connection.
hoping to see the spark burst
hoping to see some form of life
yet all i see is your veins.
your green veins that show when your utterly mad and feel like killing something


i want to cut you up into a million pieces, loveable bitsize pieces.


truth is
i'm as dead to you as a corpse
and the only word i get from you
is
good for you



feelings come and go
but this hasnt passed
this hasnt even nearly surpassed the fact that i'm in love.
this time.
it stayed.

and if it did stay for good would you take a look at me again?



the uncountable number of times i burned you.
the uncountable number of times i left you hanging.
the uncountable number of times i hurt you
the uncountable number of times i swore you off.

i'm sorry
but as you've said a million times
'It's easy for you to say sorry' or ' You always say sorry'


where do i go
who do i see
when do i sleep
when do i cry
when do i get a shot




i will wake up tomorrow
and realize this all wasn't a dream
and that you weren't a waste of time.
but you will wake up tomorrow
to a new girl
a new life
a new person

To Jimmy. You will be missed. but not for long. i'll see you in the summer





and on a more personal note

In Remembrance Of Kavin

you were not only kesh's younger brother. but you were sort of like my brother. of same age. and of same problems. you always had the right thing to say.
you lived life exactly the way you wanted to, and you did all the right things.
you were an amazing person, and we all pay tribute to you tonight for being the role model. for whatever sadness we may grieve now, we know that you suffered alot more. having let go of you. having to move on isn't as simple as your brother thinks it is. you were more special to him than you know it.
In your famous words

To another world, to another life, let's drink up tonight for we have survived!


Another life, another man, another person, another friend.
When will the torturous pain of losing someone go away for me?