Discreet

" I'm so scared of letting you go that i've lost myself within you. How did i come to love someone like you whose so ignorant to the fact that i am trying my ass off to please you. Dont let me go tonight. "

I have exams
VERY VERY SOON!
and i officially declare today as the day i will successfully start studying!
seriously :)


these are the things that i will do to make studying alot easier on me:

i will no longer watch re-runs of grey's anatomy

i will no longer need to be on the phone 24-7

i will no longer laze around doing absolutely nothing

i will no longer be sleeping 18 hours of my day

i will no longer find a need to go out everyday

i will no longer find a need to attend a party on a friday night

i will no longer stay up late hanging on the phone.
period!

gah
for me to accomplish that after a super long weekend is bound to be hard.
but oh well
i have to do it!
otherwise im doomed.
oh i so hate the word "doomed"
yet i just used it
stupid me :(




as i gazed into your eyes
and as you stared straight back at me
a pang of jealousy struck me
and it hit me
i'm utterly yours
i get jealous of the tiniest things you do
i know i seem to piss you off all the time
and i know you are so pissing off
and you know i love you
and i know you love me
but somehow
we're two totally different people
how do opposites attract?
why dont we repel and get it over with?
how can i fall head over heels with you?
how can i not show my love for you?
why am i so ignorant with you?
why am i completely oblivious when you walk in the room?
why do i not know what to say to you?




anyways. i'm off to go study economics
seeing that i have not attended school in a while.
and kesh if you read this.
DO NOT CALL ME!
cause i'm still pissing off with you for waking me @ 4am
and btw, i blame you for me not going to school today!
so
au revoir

edit: the feelings i go through for you cannot be expressed because i dont know where we might stand. i dont tell you i love you as much as i should because i dont know if your real.



listening to: De La Soul - Shopping Bags





feeling: distraught





obsession: BOOKS




craving: non meaty food (no seriously)




You said you've got something, deep inside of you <3