Good Intentions

" I dont expect you to swing out of trees as and when i like, but please, commit to something with me and dont let our happy ending turn out to her ever ever after dream, as i have plans for you too "


I dont know why
But i've had no mood all day today.
For anything.
Even shopping.

i know i know. Shocking much.

I can somewhat relate to merideth
Cause i can be dark and twisty
and weird and not co-operative


So for the next three days.
I plan to be:
1) emotional
2) fucky
3) selfless
4) obsessive compulsive
5) freaky
6) twisted
7) crazy
8) weird
9) fanatical
10) high


I cant do little miss sunshine.
Cause i'm not cut out for crap like that.
I'm a girl with a tonne of problems
And i'm glad i'm like this.
Without problems and tragedies, i dont know where i would fit in this world.
I count my lucky stars, even when i'm unlucky.
How weird could that get?


I need to cry
And get high
and know that there will be someone, to catch up
arms wide open
heart filled with love
ready for me to fall
and to jump up and reach for me.
but where?
where do i find a person like that?
yes, a few in mind.
But, difference is.
That person cant have all those.
And if you do.
Really, you're amazing.


I cant wait for a sadder day. When the rain pours, and i'm out there with you. Bearing my heart and soul, and hoping you would flinch just an inch. Where you would hold me close and tell me it will be okay. Where i can breath in the freshness of your skin and know it will be okay. I need you to catch me, and just hold me, and hold my gaze while i stare into your eyes and just think of all the possibilities of us. Like how you held me that night. So close, yet so far. So tender yet so rough. How your voice sounded soothing, but i knew it was as harsh as ever. I need to live in a world, where time stops for me. Where you would notice me. Where you would give me the time of day. Where i would leap out and grab hold of you, while you embrace me and give me a bear hug. I need a world of my own. Where everything is perfect. Would you stand by me?


I need amazing
I need perfect
I need joy
I need wonder
I need to be happy
I need all this and so much more!


edit: i need to feel like a girl once again

listening to: switchfoot - awakening

feeling: bitchy



Bugger off to the side line and let me live for the last time <3