Sunday, May 4, 2008

Newness

new blog
new start


www.lovelyphilzlove.wordpress.com



PS: i needed the password protect thinga ma shit!

Friday, May 2, 2008

Wreck

Usually. I think of what to say in my blog posts. And i roughly depicite a picture the night before. But that wasn't the case last night. Funny enough?


I've just lost a
bestfriend and just maybe a boyfriend

Oh yes. Please. Save the OMG. what happened. and. please tell me about it. or. are you okay?. or. you deserve so much better.
Trust me. I've heard ALL of this already


so here's my story
and after the story. i shall leave. and really. this time when i say i wont be blogging for a while. i literally mean it!


_____________________________________________________________



There are times in your life where you laugh heartily cause of something funny, and there are other times you laugh just to hide your disappointment.
There are times in your life where you cry cause something drastic happened , and there are other times when you simply look yourself in the mirror and cry.
Point is, sometimes your fake.



Frankly. Honestly.
I'm a terrible girlfriend. I either never saw the boy enough. Or never had time for him. Or picked my friends over him. So yeah. Get the picture? So that's why relationships for me always had a strain. But by far, the past one was the most strenuous. More for him then me.


So i'm in the wrong this time. I'm in the utter wrong this time. Because of my behaviour and attitude, i landed myself a piece of cake that i should eat straight away, and still be able to smile after that. Oh yes. I did smile. I smiled alot indeed. And then. I cried. Cried alot more than anything else. I screamed a little. Threw things around a little. But yeah. Cried alot.


So i dont blame him. I have blamed him occasionally. And then taken it back straight away. And i've apologized profusely but that never seemed to work. So. I'm to blame. And i'm at fault. And if sympathy comes from you readers out there. It should only be for this substantial reason. It's because you feel sorry that i just lost someone i loved the most. Ever. And because you would prolly think i was great at being a girlfriend.



I dont find the need to explain myself to anyone but him. But acceptance speeches and moroseful speeches shall be saved for the latter, for the mere fact that he did not need to hear it last night.


So that's the boyfriend issue. There's alot more to it. Beneath the surface which i obviously am not going to disclose on my blog. But for me to even be talking about it in this manner is amazing. So compliment me for that would you. Hugs and I'm sorry for you is allowed. But you know. Not from cows or dumb shits. And also. I need the time, space and air for myself right now. Because i am not going to pretend that everything is fine.



I leave you with that.



edit:

My substantial and indiscreet behaviour has landed me the biggest piece of bullshit in my life. I have never felt worse. And i have never cried so much. Oh well. That's what you do out of love right?



listening to: nothing



feeling: you dont have to know.



craving: nothing





Oh how perfect can may get? <3

Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Equations is what you're made up of, not me

FROM BLOGTHINGS

THE CITY WALK PERSONALITY TEST

You are adventurous and easygoing. You love life, as long as you don't have to do anything hard.

You are very outgoing and friendly. You feel very comfortable in a crowd, and you can get to know anyone.

Money is fairly important to you. You aren't super greedy, but you enjoy spending money on yourself.

You tend to be organized, logical, and methodical. You're so efficient, people often wonder how you get so much done.



HOW MUCH LUST DO YOU HAVE

You are definitely a lustful person, but you do a good job of hiding it.
Your friends would be surprised to know that your secretly very wild!


Your lust quotient : 47%



WILL HE COMMIT?


There's no way he'll commit

Maybe you haven't known each other long...
And that's why he's acting a bit sketchy
But if you've been together for a few months,
Then you've got to let him go.
Because he's not looking to put a ring on your finger - ever.
This guy's not going to change for you, or any other woman.


WHAT'S YOUR ELEMENT?

Your element is Air

You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world.
And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly.

Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life.
You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful.

You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person.
With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!




I shall not blog for the next 32 hours. and i am counting :)

i'm going to the curve tomorrow
and oh yes. i am extremely and utterly excited.
joy joy joy
haha. no seriously :)
and we're eating @ sakae sushi
and we're stuffing it into isra's mouth
oh literally maybe
and then we're going to try and watch iron man
heh
4 girls. and like 10 guys.
or something
gang bang
hah!
so anyways.
im off to study and then sleep
cause i need to study and yes. i need to sleep too :)


Hanrick says: (11:27:13 PM)
mooka
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:27:18 PM)
mocha
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:27:24 PM)
pleeeeeeeeaaassssssssssssssssssseeeeeeeeeee
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:27:28 PM)
retards...
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:27:36 PM)
yeah kay fine...we're watching iron man
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:27:38 PM)
:P
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:27:41 PM)
do you see isra. you're the only odd one out :)
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:27:49 PM)
haha. i loveeeee ya beeeyatch :D
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:27:54 PM)
umm...julian seems sane
Hanrick says: (11:27:55 PM)
OIIII
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:27:55 PM)
hahaha
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:28:00 PM)
love ya tooo
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:28:03 PM)
okay
Hanrick says: (11:28:03 PM)
WHO THE FUCK'S GOING TOMORROW LA ?
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:28:05 PM)
SCREW YOU HANRICK
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:28:09 PM)
EVERYONE
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:28:11 PM)
so hanrick is coming?
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:28:11 PM)
goshhh
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:28:11 PM)
DONT SIMPLY OOOI PEOPLE
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:28:16 PM)
hahahah
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:28:18 PM)
hahaha. :)
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:28:18 PM)
I SCREW YOU TMR
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:28:22 PM)
UPSIDE DOWN
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:28:37 PM)
so tickets tomorrow.
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:28:40 PM)
kay
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:28:46 PM)
when everyones strting to order
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:28:46 PM)
so julian
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:28:51 PM)
order nice sushi :D
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:28:55 PM)
bring money julian
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:28:58 PM)
noooooooooooooooooo
Hanrick says: (11:28:59 PM)
u dont have anything to screw me with =)
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:29:02 PM)
julian is NOT ORDERING
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:29:09 PM)
julian is SO ordering :)
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:29:09 PM)
hahaha
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:29:12 PM)
NO HE ISNT
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:29:20 PM)
il die on my first bite or smthin
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:29:23 PM)
julian. dont you want to order?
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:29:24 PM)
:)
Hanrick says: (11:29:25 PM)
AND SHIT LA
Hanrick says: (11:29:34 PM)
U PPL HAVENT TELL ME WHO'S BLOODY GOING
Hanrick says: (11:29:37 PM)
all the yr 10s ?
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:29:38 PM)
kay, are u coming or notttt?
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:29:41 PM)
dude
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:29:41 PM)
whooooooooooooooooooooooo
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:29:42 PM)
everyone
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:29:44 PM)
okay?
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:29:45 PM)
yesss
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:29:50 PM)
now shut up and come. and stop asking who
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:29:50 PM)
i love you israaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:29:53 PM)
whooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
Hanrick says: (11:29:53 PM)
even timothy ?
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:29:57 PM)
hahaha
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:30:01 PM)
hahah
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:30:06 PM)
were watching iron man!
Hanrick says: (11:30:08 PM)
WTF ?
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:30:09 PM)
our definition of everyone
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:30:09 PM)
whooooooooooooooo
Hanrick says: (11:30:11 PM)
im not going
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:30:15 PM)
good
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:30:16 PM)
dont go la
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:30:18 PM)
-__-
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:30:20 PM)
shes lying...gosh...so gullible
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:30:32 PM)
ur so mean
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:30:32 PM)
ish
Hanrick says: (11:30:34 PM)
i know
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:30:36 PM)
here's the list
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:30:38 PM)
now shut up and listen
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:30:39 PM)
how slow are you?
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:30:41 PM)
haha
Hanrick says: (11:30:41 PM)
she's just so...
Hanrick says: (11:30:43 PM)
gah
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:30:44 PM)
and if you still ask who
Hanrick says: (11:30:51 PM)
yes yes
Hanrick says: (11:30:52 PM)
go la
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:30:53 PM)
i shall personally kick your ass the next time i see you
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:30:57 PM)
haha
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:31:15 PM)
boom,julian,gary,eugene,isra,me,amanda,zuly,jon,casey,steven,james. PERIOD
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:31:25 PM)
derrickkkkkk
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:31:27 PM)
gosh woman
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:31:33 PM)
derrick is not coming
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:31:34 PM)
u dont even know the damn list
Hanrick says: (11:31:36 PM)
who's amanda and zuly and jon and steven and period ?
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:31:41 PM)
OMG
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:31:43 PM)
-.-
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:31:44 PM)
your mama
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:31:47 PM)
hahahaha
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:31:51 PM)
you better come tomorrow hanrick
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:31:53 PM)
i swear.
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:31:57 PM)
i need to see you
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:32:01 PM)
after so many questions, yeah u better
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:32:04 PM)
:P
Hanrick says: (11:32:05 PM)
ive got a webcam
Hanrick says: (11:32:08 PM)
does that count ?
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:32:11 PM)
wei....
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:32:13 PM)
no. we need to kick the living shit out of him
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:32:16 PM)
hahaah
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:32:20 PM)
"I AM COMING LA' DERRICK HERE
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:32:22 PM)
lol
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:32:26 PM)
no hanrick.i didnt literally want to see you.
Hanrick says: (11:32:27 PM)
dunno la
Hanrick says: (11:32:34 PM)
i got to attend some show
Hanrick says: (11:32:36 PM)
ytl thingy
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:32:38 PM)
go attend the show
Hanrick says: (11:32:41 PM)
and if not
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:32:42 PM)
and stop asking questions
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:32:43 PM)
hanrick u can go attend ur stupid ass show
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:32:43 PM)
julian. seriously. call derrick. tell him to come. we are watching iron man for him.
Hanrick says: (11:32:48 PM)
im going out with some girl from gis
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:32:52 PM)
haha
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:33:00 PM)
HAHAHAHASHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:33:04 PM)
hahahahah
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:33:05 PM)
FUCKING BULLSHIT
Hanrick says: (11:33:08 PM)
mmhmm
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:33:10 PM)
now if everyone leaves the conversation at the same time. we shall not have to talk to him :)
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:33:11 PM)
ITS GONNA BE ALL GUYS!
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:33:15 PM)
hahahaha
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:33:19 PM)
gay ones...
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:33:21 PM)
AND YOU'RE GONNA HAVE A GAY ORGY
Hanrick says: (11:33:24 PM)
yeap...
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:33:25 PM)
hahahah
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:33:30 PM)
stop being mean julian:P
Hanrick says: (11:33:30 PM)
mmhmmm
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:33:45 PM)
okay
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:33:49 PM)
julian. seriously. call derrick. tell him to come. we are watching iron man for him.
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:33:52 PM)
soryyy hanrick darling
Hanrick says: (11:33:54 PM)
up your's =)
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:33:56 PM)
hahaha
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:34:01 PM)
kay u can be mean now
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:34:02 PM)
:P
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:34:05 PM)
im on the phone with derrick :D
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:34:09 PM)
he's on the phone with philipa
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:34:13 PM)
TELL HIM TO COME!!
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:34:19 PM)
he's really at my houseeeeeeee!
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:34:23 PM)
sure...
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:34:24 PM)
:P
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:34:24 PM)
its PHILIPPA
Hanrick says: (11:34:28 PM)
come or cu...nvm :P
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:34:36 PM)
call me a friend. pfft!
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:34:42 PM)
hahahaha
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:34:50 PM)
hanrick. get ur mind out of the gutter:)
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:34:52 PM)
hahah
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:34:58 PM)
i used to spell it that way...
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:34:59 PM)
:P
Hanrick says: (11:35:32 PM)
not suprised :P
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:36:06 PM)
so anyways
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:36:09 PM)
derrick called me
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:36:10 PM)
hahaha
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:36:12 PM)
anywayyyyyy
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:36:13 PM)
he'sfunny
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:36:17 PM)
he sounded like arthur
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:36:19 PM)
hes coming ryt?
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:36:23 PM)
and he's at my houuuuuussse
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:36:28 PM)
i bet their doing the 'nasty nasty' tonight
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:36:28 PM)
HAHA
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:36:30 PM)
we get it julian:P
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:36:35 PM)
hahaha
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:36:49 PM)
israaaaaaa. remember when we were in science class. and i had to explain to benjamin and timothy what the tiger show was.
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:36:55 PM)
hahahahahahahahah
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:36:57 PM)
HAHAHAHHA
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:37:00 PM)
vulgar shit...
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:37:01 PM)
:P
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:37:13 PM)
julian. have you seen the tiger show?
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:37:20 PM)
i hate you guys.....
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:37:21 PM)
i bet its their new life ambition
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:37:22 PM)
hahaha
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:37:24 PM)
whyyy???
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:37:30 PM)
i know you dont hate me.
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:37:34 PM)
i know you dont hate isr
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:37:37 PM)
*isra
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:37:41 PM)
but maybe you hate hanrick
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:37:43 PM)
and thats okay
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:37:45 PM)
yes. cuz we're watching iron man:)
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:37:53 PM)
i love isra because she's watching iron man!
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:37:55 PM)
haha
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:38:02 PM)
haha. and she's eating wasabi
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:38:08 PM)
no!!!
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:38:11 PM)
:D
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:38:11 PM)
yes
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:38:15 PM)
u cant force me to eat it
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:38:16 PM)
:)
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:38:19 PM)
HANRICK.have you seen the tiger show?
Hanrick says: (11:38:29 PM)
nope
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:38:39 PM)
yes, i see hanricks future full of nothing but the tiger show
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:38:39 PM)
aww. why?
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:38:44 PM)
haha
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:38:48 PM)
you havent lived till you've seen it :P
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:38:51 PM)
haha. not really
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:39:12 PM)
julian have you seen it?
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:39:21 PM)
YES!
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:39:28 PM)
HELL OF ALOT OF TIMES
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:39:31 PM)
oh oh. you know what. amanda's studying right now
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:39:35 PM)
hahaha...i wonder why...
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:39:38 PM)
no wayyyyyyyyyy
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:39:40 PM)
what?
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:39:41 PM)
ick. thats why you became ............
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:39:42 PM)
:)
Hanrick says: (11:39:42 PM)
u know
Hanrick says: (11:39:48 PM)
they sell used condoms online ?
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:39:49 PM)
she went all smart on me in math todayyy toooo
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:39:52 PM)
haha
Hanrick says: (11:39:58 PM)
world's so messed up
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:40:03 PM)
im sure you'd know all about that hanrick
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:40:04 PM)
:P
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:40:07 PM)
me,rapha and amanda went smart today during math
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:40:13 PM)
not rafa
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:40:20 PM)
why the eff are looking for condoms online?
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:40:30 PM)
u really need to ask?:P
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:40:31 PM)
hahahah
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:40:36 PM)
are you planning on having cyber sex thru the webcam with a girl in japan?
Hanrick says: (11:40:59 PM)
= =
Hanrick says: (11:41:06 PM)
ohh damn...
Hanrick says: (11:41:08 PM)
u found out
Hanrick says: (11:41:12 PM)
oh dear me
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:41:12 PM)
screw u hanrick
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:41:14 PM)
i hate u man
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:41:22 PM)
what what
Hanrick says: (11:41:22 PM)
i hate u too
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:41:24 PM)
wow. great discovery
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:41:28 PM)
that makes two of us julian
Hanrick says: (11:41:29 PM)
after wad u did to me last night ;)
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:41:30 PM)
haha
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:41:34 PM)
ur evolution sound like crap la\
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:41:36 PM)
haha. three of us :)
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:41:39 PM)
haha
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:41:48 PM)
ew. your horny hanrick
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:41:52 PM)
disgusting
Hanrick says: (11:41:52 PM)
sure they do
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:41:53 PM)
oooorrrrgyyyyyyyyy
Hanrick says: (11:41:58 PM)
im not horny
Hanrick says: (11:42:01 PM)
ive got smooth skin
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:42:10 PM)
so
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:42:11 PM)
who cares
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:42:12 PM)
lets leave about...now?
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:42:15 PM)
no one's gonna feel you up
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:42:15 PM)
:P
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:42:24 PM)
haha
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:42:30 PM)
i second that motion!
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:42:37 PM)
hippo's on
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:42:39 PM)
julian. third it and we'll leave on the count of 3
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:42:44 PM)
ick. dont talk to him
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:42:49 PM)
pretend your dead
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:42:49 PM)
im nottt
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:42:50 PM)
haha
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:42:53 PM)
second day in a row
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:42:54 PM)
hahaha
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:43:01 PM)
il say wevind is on my account now
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:43:02 PM)
hahaha
Hanrick says: (11:43:09 PM)
im not going tomorrow
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:43:14 PM)
okay hanrick
Hanrick has left the conversation.


Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:43:16 PM)
we're crushed.
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:43:18 PM)
hahaha
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:43:20 PM)
HAHAHAHAHAHA
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:43:20 PM)
emo shit...
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:43:41 PM)
where's julian?
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:43:59 PM)
sooooory
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:44:05 PM)
oh hi julian :) i missed you!
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:44:07 PM)
watching a video
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:44:10 PM)
hahahaha
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:44:12 PM)
tiger show
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:44:21 PM)
you watching tiger show on you tube?
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:44:28 PM)
not worth it. go thailand and see it live
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:44:31 PM)
ohhh emo shit left
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:44:32 PM)
hahaha
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:44:32 PM)
hahahaha
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:44:33 PM)
brb
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:44:41 PM)
same
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:44:42 PM)
you better not go talk to vik -___-
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:44:46 PM)
kay bye
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:44:56 PM)
i have to get my despo friend food!
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:44:57 PM)
byeee
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:44:58 PM)
x
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:45:02 PM)
see ya lads tomorrow
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:45:03 PM)
nights
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:45:03 PM)
x
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:45:21 PM)
byeee
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:45:23 PM)
lov ya
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:45:26 PM)
im waking u up at nine
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:45:29 PM)
love yaa tooo
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:45:30 PM)
bye to wevind too
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:45:32 PM)
:P
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:45:36 PM)
you can wake me up too :D
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:45:36 PM)
waht bout meeeee\
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:45:40 PM)
BYE JULIAN
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:45:44 PM)
i love yaaaaa 2 :D
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:45:47 PM)
happy? :P
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:45:48 PM)
hahahaha
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:45:53 PM)
no
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:45:55 PM)
so i gtg tooo
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:46:00 PM)
byeee julian:)
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:46:01 PM)
isra didnt say anything
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:46:06 PM)
okay julian. i love ya more than isra loves ya :D
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:46:07 PM)
kay?
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:46:10 PM)
hahaha
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:46:10 PM)
hahahaha
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:46:16 PM)
see that isra!
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:46:19 PM)
beat that!
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:46:19 PM)
haha
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:46:30 PM)
well, im eating wasabi for u tmrw:)
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:46:31 PM)
hahahaha
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:46:39 PM)
hahaha
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:46:40 PM)
oh julian. bring your fu yoh camera tomorrow :D
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:46:45 PM)
im eating it on its own
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:46:59 PM)
yes this is about my love for you, not ur love for urself:P
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:47:06 PM)
and its my firsttt timee
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:47:14 PM)
hahaha
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:47:15 PM)
kk
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:47:17 PM)
hahahaha
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:47:18 PM)
ok ok
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:47:20 PM)
BYE DERRICK :) goodnight
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:47:20 PM)
fine!
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:47:23 PM)
hahaha
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:47:37 PM)
derrick : byee good nite :)
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:47:40 PM)
tell derrick to pray like shit tonight. to make up for all the gay time :P
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:47:45 PM)
make sure derrick comes tomorrowwwwww
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:47:53 PM)
hahaha
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:47:55 PM)
ok ok
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:47:58 PM)
kay
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:47:58 PM)
kay bye
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:48:01 PM)
byee guys:)
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:48:05 PM)
lov ya bothhh
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:48:09 PM)
u too derrick:P
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:48:34 PM)
i feel less loved
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:48:38 PM)
haha
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:48:41 PM)
cause now you love 3 people
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:48:43 PM)
compared to 2
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:48:43 PM)
i love ya the mosttt:)
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:48:46 PM)
haha
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:48:47 PM)
when it was 50 50
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:49:00 PM)
i love u seperately
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:49:02 PM)
:P
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:49:04 PM)
oh good :)
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:49:05 PM)
okay
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:49:06 PM)
okay
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:49:07 PM)
okay
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:49:07 PM)
byee
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:49:09 PM)
haha
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:49:10 PM)
wake me up
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:49:11 PM)
byee
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:49:14 PM)
nine am
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:49:15 PM)
bye:)
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:49:19 PM)
more like 10
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:49:20 PM)
haha
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:49:20 PM)
bye
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:49:22 PM)
haha
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:49:23 PM)
fine
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:49:27 PM)
LOOK PRETTY TOMORROQ
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:49:27 PM)
derrick says he will definately come
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:49:34 PM)
kayy:L:L
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:49:35 PM)
tell derrick to look PRETTY :)
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:49:42 PM)
no u look prettyyy
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:49:54 PM)
we need him to look pretty.
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:49:55 PM)
kay gosh im leaving woman
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:49:57 PM)
haha
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:49:58 PM)
hahah
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:50:02 PM)
oh and julian. you need to look pretty too!
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:50:03 PM)
hes sooo cute already:P
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:50:03 PM)
bye isra!
Isra (= .tell me what it is that keeps us hanging on. says: (11:50:06 PM)
byee
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:50:10 PM)
and remember. dress code is jeans :)
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:50:14 PM)
bye philippa
~julian' Eat drink and be merry for tomorrow we die` says: (11:50:18 PM)
o kk
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:50:20 PM)
bye julian
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:50:25 PM)
bye derrick :)

_______________________________________________


cause i will be coming back were your last words as you left the room. you promised to call. you promised to text. you promised you would miss me every second of the way. but its been 49 hours. and frankly. i can't wait any longer. my hormones burst out in rage whenever your in the room. my celibacy shall climb steps by itself when your gone.
i dont know if i take you more than a friend. your always drifting. its utterly disappointing and non appealing. how generally annoyed i get at you is amazing. we were once just friends. until you reached over at the cinema booth and kiss me. this kiss that sent a surge of electricity through my body. which ignited a spark in me, ever since that day.
and when i decided to wake up the next day. all i could think about was you. it was disturbing. it was more than disturbing. it was sinful. your giant kiss and light laughter shall be a forgotten memory. no wait. it hasn't. it wouldn't cause you had me every step of the way after you said you really really like me.
i was celibate for the past 28 months. before you came back. i was clean. pure. earthly. not worldly. earthly. then you stride in. guitar in hand. backpack on arm. and biceps looking wonderful in that tight tee shirt. honestly. how do you expect me to resist?
your aggrivating words during sex was the most trusting thing i had of you. and when you were leaving. i believed every word you said.
oh great. i've fallen in love with you.

so therefore
catch me when i fall
pick me up when i'm done
and i shall remain your slave girl for as long as you need



rockstar of whatever shit it is you are.
i love you
except
i dont



edit:


my feelings towards anyone right now might be cut off BECAUSE if you haven't already realized. i am going through a difficult period



listening to: Koffee Brown - After Party



feeling: good



craving: gummy bears






Scream love <3

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Drive

: I wouldn't be surprised if you'd up and gone one day at a time just to test my limits and see my perfection : *compliment taken*






I'm living in utter ignorance to your existance.
I'm taking you on a joyride and by the end of it. You'll get so sick of me being around you that you will eventually decide to call it quits.
I promise you :)
The elongated silence when you enter the room shall be broken with my outspoken-ness and my true sense of love and humor for you.
My pissing off moments with you have proven to be the best. It's almost like i feel most loved at those times.
Totally untrue.
Totally forsaken.
I give up.
Give you up.
:)
Oh how you're gleeing with joy now,and wishing you married me sooner.
Binge eating through a saturday night, and watching re-runs of the olden english comedy is so our thing.
Watching you dress up and look *muah* perfecto is something that i could definetly live for.
The horror of waiting till you come home half drunk, and when we're finally in bed, and when you're breathing heavily just after another round is something i know you can get used to.

For having to sit here and list out all the reasons why i love you is truly stupid.
To sit here and make fun of you and every aspect of you is what is so much more fun that the stupid " i love's " which if you have not forgotten. Is what you consider fake.




I attempt to let you go.
And everytime i do.
I draw you closer.
The deeper we get.
The harder it gets.
Longer the breaks.
More love re-appears.


I draw my last breath as i leave the room
I save the last scent on the underside of the beautiful gown i dine in tonight
I let go of the last kiss as you hold me tightly
I give up everything for anything you want as you utter in silence " I love you "




__________________________________________________________


I have amazing friends. No really i do.
I'll start with Wevind :)
Wevind has been my emo shit ever since sunday morning. And THANK YOU so much for that.eventhough you piece of dumb shit will never read this. I really really am appreciative for the hours you put into me.

Secondly. Isra :)
Hah. my gorgeous, pregnant ballerina friend. And also. the beautiful pakistani :) she's been my emo listener as well

Amanda :)
she has never failed to make a situation brighter by her what seems to her as a perfectly normal thing to say. but what turns out shits funny

Zuly :)
she listened to me bitch like for an hour last night. about me and my stupid problems. and we talked about ex's and some other stupid things.


I LOVE ALL OF YOU :)



Isra and Amanda created this song
And Benjamin and i edited it :)
enjoy



THE SMART SONG

Study with an 's', with a capital 'S'

Move with an 'm', with a capital 'M'

Achieve with an 'a', with a capital 'A'

Revise with an 'r', with a capital 'R'

Think with a 't', with a capital 'T'



Genre: Motivational

Performed by: The Birds


Created by: Amanda Loo and Isra Tariq




EDITED/EXPLICIT VERSION


Suck with an 's', with a capital 'S'

Moan with an 'm', with a capital 'M'

Anal with an 'a', with a capital 'A'

Rape with an 'r', with a capital 'R'

Tits with a 't, with a capital 'T'



okay so the edited version is stupid. but oh well. it was chemistry and we needed to enlighten the mood of studying :)

so this is OFFICIALLY the YEAR 10 AQUA song. and we have to memorize and sing it everyday. the non-explicit version of course :)








edit:


compassion was nothing new as you walked into my life, i accepted and took you in. but just sometimes do i regret every step i ever made. all of the steps i made with you.




listening to: Boys Like Girls - On Top Of The World



feeling: morose



craving: gummy bears







I want you to want me to need me and to love me. Really. Is that so hard? <3