Baby, you're all that I want
When you're lying here in my arms,
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven
Oh, thinking about all our younger years
There was only you and me
We were young and wild and free
Now nothing can take you away from me
We've been down that road before
But that's over now
You keep me coming back for more
Baby, you're all that I want
When you're lying here in my arms,
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need,
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven
Oh, once in your life you find someone
Who will turn your world around
Pick you up when your feeling down
Now nothing could change what you mean to me
There's a lot that I could say
But just hold me now
Cause our love will light the way
Baby you're all that I want
When you're lying here in my arms,
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need,
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven
I've been waiting for so long
For something to arrive
For love to come along
Now our dreams are coming true
Through the good times and the bad
I'll be standing there by you
Baby you're all that I want
When you're lying here in my arms
Im finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need,
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven
Oh, Oh
Oh, Oh
We're in heaven
DJ Sammy Ft Yanou - Heaven
My day hasn't officially begun
But i've got your missed calls, and what seems to be concerned voice messages and text messages.
I lazily dial your number, not knowing whether or not i should. And put you on speaker.
You pick up, as exasperated as you sound. I know it's fake. I know you're fake.
So you tell me how you've been trying to call, how you've been wanting to tell me this one thing for the past 4 hours. Yet. When i ask. You dont say.
But, you accuse. You accuse for me not being awake, for me going back to sleep. For me not being there for you.
And we start the whole cycle all over again.
You say that i'm not good enough.
You say i'm not worth it.
Yet somehow, amazingly, you're still with me.
Why, you should ask yourself. Since i'm not what you want me to be inside, out!
I turn back the clock, to 48 days ago, when i was happy, when you were happy, when we were all mello.
Now.
I'm high. I'm drugged. I've smoked. I've drank. All because i didn't want my day to begin so early.
But, here i am, on the phone with you. 1 in the afternoon, listening to your wise accusations and your brief description of your ex greek goddess!
Why do i not feel compelled to come there and slap you in the face and want to kill you with my bare hands?
I feel hatred towards the goddess, you know that. But funnily, you call her my best friend.
Knowing that it will spike me, knowing that i will eventually turn around and start yelling at you.
And you, you are so very good at this. In the middle of a fight, face to face, when the heat is on. You'll take me by the hand, kiss me on my hand, and eventually lift my head, and kiss me gently on the lips, then whisper into my ear, " i love you " so softly that its barely audible. And you know for a fact that i absolutely hate you at that moment, but fall momentarily weak just because you said something that can make any girl want to end the fight.
There's no way to quite describe you. There's no words that size you up.
Good thing you might say, but for me, if you can't be describe, you're absolutely horrendous.
Why didn't i see this the day i saw you?
Maybe cause i was awe struck for words cause you seemed close to perfection.
It was my safety net that caught me, it was my safety net and my friends that held me close through all those night i lingered on in bed crying, and not wanting to do anything else!
At times, i blame you, and deep down, i hate you.
But eventually, it all turns around, and just for those 10 hours, its perfect. You make everything worth it. I feel real.
So here i am. Now 1:30 in the afternoon. And you're still talking. Eventually, your bell rings. And you have to get back to class within the next 10 minutes. But that doesn't bother you the slightest bit.
So i put down the phone, on my bed stand, i walk to my closet, open it up. Take out my ciggarettes, take out of the box and light it.
Still listening to your discouraging words.
Looking out the window, looking at the city. I wonder of how i am in here now, feeling depressed and not utterly sexy and in the city, looking fabulous and gorgeous.
Then it hits me, its cause i'm with you.
Heh, and like everyone says, there's only ONE YOU.
So after the ciggarette, i tell you i have a more important call and say i love you before i hung up. And without hearing your last words, i switch off my phone.
I subconsciously decide that i have had enough for today, and i chose instead to go out, and have fun, and get drunk early in the day, so that i dont have to deal with you tonight.
Half way out the door and my pager beeps. Its you.
Why am i not surprised.
You message saying that you miss me and that you want me.
I light up another ciggarette knowing that it will help me deal with the fact that i date, live, breath and love an asshole.
I plug in my headphones as the driver drives along the highway to the city.
I see all these other cars pass by and wonder why i am not just another normal person doing daily fun activities at work.
Instead, i listened to your wise advice and took in the fact that i should stay at home for a while.
Its all bullshit
Starting with you
Ending with me
Humiliating much!
So here i end it, well, that's what i always tell myself.
But.
I wish myself luck.
Succeed or not.
Tonight i'm having fun
Here or not.
You wont know what happens tonight.
edit: labellings are all messed up!
listening to: Eric Clapton - My Father's Eyes.
feeling: sucky
obsessed: pictures
If it's good to complicate then both of us are doing fine <3
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