Ship comes in

................you looked out and saw me coming, you raised a hand and waived. Assuring me with your smile, and your arms wide open. I see the emptiness in you. And it fills me.



bittersweetmemories are not popping out
this void you've created
between you and me
its humongous
and it grows each and every day.
the more time we spend apart.
the more time we make up with others.


the void
this void
your void
your space


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i wake up today
hoping to find flowers strewn across the cold floor
with the air con still running
and the slow music playing from the other room
i drag myself out of the room
lazily walk across the cold parqued floor to the next room
i see you sitting there
coffee in hand
phone in the other
you open your arms to me
i crawl into them
i find a place to rest my head
i feel safe
i feel warm
i feel secure for the first time in a long time
the bouquet lay at my feet
pink roses
you lean over and kiss me gently on my forehead.
i look up to you, search your face for the answer, and you lean down and place your lips gently against mine and whisper i love you. and you kiss me tenderly
your evenly beating heart against my ear is like melody to a bunch of deaf ducks.
i've fallen in love with a daft stranger.
and i can help but laugh at my own mistake
i see compassion, love, life, and everything else a girl would like to see in their partner's eyes, all in your eyes.
you smile would light up the room
you just did
and although our day wasn't perfect
i still love you for the very most




Eric Clapton - My Father's Eyes

Sailing down behind the sun,
Waiting for my prince to come.
Praying for the healing rain
To restore my soul again.

Just a toerag on the run.
How did I get here?
What have I done?
When will all my hopes arise?
How will I know him?
When I look in my father's eyes.
My father's eyes.
When I look in my father's eyes.
My father's eyes.

Then the light begins to shine
And I hear those ancient lullabies.
And as I watch this seedling grow,
Feel my heart start to overflow.

Where do I find the words to say?
How do I teach him?
What do we play?
Bit by bit, I've realized
That's when I need them,
That's when I need my father's eyes.
My father's eyes.
That's when I need my father's eyes.
My father's eyes.

Then the jagged edge appears
Through the distant clouds of tears.
I'm like a bridge that was washed away;
My foundations were made of clay.

As my soul slides down to die.
How could I lose him?
What did I try?
Bit by bit, I've realized
That he was here with me;
I looked into my father's eyes.
My father's eyes.
I looked into my father's eyes.
My father's eyes.

My father's eyes.
My father's eyes.
I looked into my father's eyes.
My father's eyes.



edit: all my past, and the rest of my future, i leave it in your hands, whatever you may want, wherever you may go. i will follow


listening to: Incubus - Clean



feeling: morose and computerized



craving: more sleeping pills



obsession: magazines :)



I need a map of your head, so i can draw out my future <3