Conservatory Area

" The Lights Dimmed As You Said I Love You For The Very Last Time. "

We're looking at the same black sky
You swam a million miles away to bid your last goodbye.
To the first person you loved, last person you'll ever think of now.
Yet.
My pang of jealousy has just struck
And im stricken in awe of the fact that you just left.

The fact that im mentally obsessed with you. And that i have bared my heart, body and soul all just for you. In a tiny period of time should be a reason enough for you.. Standing out of the crowd was the most important thing for you. and i tried my best. In failed attempts to bring you happiness, i brought myself to this place where i have to accept myself for who i am. Feeling bad for anything and everything doesn't help me. It might help you. Cause you're pleased by it. I bring myself to this place where no one can hurt me, where no one can know what i think of. And you know what. It only started after i met you. Coincidental much? I miss you like fishcakes. But the amount of times i tell you: I love you and I miss you. Its not going to do anything for you. It will just remind me of how hurt i am, how hurt i will be.
Wherever you are, wherever your standing.
Know that i still Love You!








*Lyrical*

Left the ground in black and white
And when the plane went down
The colours all around
I know by now, the margin's slight
And still I can't get out
She's all I think about
Can’t let her go
It's who you know

(Chorus)
We came down to watch the world walk by
And all she found was trouble in my eyes
From the sky she pulled me down tonight
Let her go, let her go

She moves fast, takes control
And like a heart attack I know I can't turn back
And time just passed, nights moved slow
And she was all I had
I thought I’d never last
Can’t let her go
It's who you know

(Chorus)
We came down to watch the world walk by
And all she found was trouble in my eyes
From the sky she pulled me down tonight
Let her go

Let her go

We came down to watch the world walk by
And all she found was trouble in my eyes
From the sky she pulled me down tonight

She calls out the farther that I fly
I love that sound so give me one more line
From the sky she pulled me down tonight
Let her go, let her go,
Let her go, let her go 

edit: the million sorrows dont make out for the amount of happiness anyone can give me



reading: english history




listening to: Coldplay - Yellow



feeling: depressed




craving: freedom



obsession: food!





A mess you could barely clean up with your own two hands, you've left for me to deal with, and for you to be the good guy. All over again <3