Broken and Bare. You were nothing in the end~

-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:52:28 PM)
amanda!
Amanda says: (11:53:10 PM)
feeling better?
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:53:50 PM)
no
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:53:58 PM)
i've started the thing on A4 paper
Amanda says: (11:54:36 PM)
oh.
Amanda says: (11:54:38 PM)
okay.
Amanda says: (11:54:45 PM)
this time, i'm not stopping it.
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:54:54 PM)
how come?
Amanda says: (11:54:58 PM)
thats better than other stuff...
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:55:07 PM)
okay
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:55:10 PM)
thanks
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:56:11 PM)
should i smoke?
Amanda says: (11:56:28 PM)
that's like asking, have i smoked?
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:56:32 PM)
lol
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:58:05 PM)
so
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:58:31 PM)
i tried calling isra
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (11:58:36 PM)
she didnt pick up
Amanda says: (12:00:46 AM)
oh.
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:01:10 AM)
so maybe i should live in denial again?
Amanda says: (12:01:34 AM)
uhhmmm...
Amanda says: (12:01:37 AM)
well.
Amanda says: (12:01:47 AM)
it depends on how you look at it, i s'pose
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:02:07 AM)
you know that feeling. like when you loose something close to you. and you struggle to breathe
Amanda says: (12:02:28 AM)
YES. omg do i ever
Amanda says: (12:02:45 AM)
i just go to sleep and stay in bed the whole day
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:03:10 AM)
so thats me now. thats me crying over something that i lost a really really really long time ago. but was too blind to see that it was gone. thats me struggling to breathe
Amanda says: (12:03:57 AM)
oh, philippa...
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:04:31 AM)
say something smart
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:04:34 AM)
a good quote.
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:04:42 AM)
im putting it on facebook
Amanda says: (12:07:45 AM)
"The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing , is nothing and becomes nothing. he may avoid suffering and sorrow, but he simply cannot learn and feel and change and grow and LOVE and live" [Leo buscaglia]
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:08:13 AM)
your own quote
Amanda says: (12:08:35 AM)
hm.
Amanda says: (12:09:14 AM)
you dont appreciate things until you realise they are gone. n once they are gone, it is too late to wish for them to come back.
Amanda says: (12:09:24 AM)
i dont suppose that made you feel better
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:11:27 AM)
no
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:11:30 AM)
it didnt
Amanda says: (12:11:38 AM)
okay.
Amanda says: (12:11:49 AM)
sorry. i've never been good at comforting anyone, really.
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:12:10 AM)
its okay
Amanda says: (12:12:28 AM)
i'll think of something comforting to say..
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:16:56 AM)
okay
Amanda says: (12:17:57 AM)
ehh, not really comforting, but this is what i've come up with so far: even if someone you love's gone, you still have your friends...not to mention your chickadees... (okay, even though one of your chicadees is trying really hard but cant come up with anything good, so that basically means she's not helping at all.)
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:18:18 AM)
haha
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:18:25 AM)
:)
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:18:36 AM)
that made me laugh
Amanda says: (12:18:38 AM)
that was a fake laff
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:18:44 AM)
no seriously
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:18:49 AM)
it made me laugh
Amanda says: (12:19:08 AM)
okay. i believe you then.
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:23:46 AM)
:D
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:26:08 AM)
so what should i do
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:26:17 AM)
besides loathe in depression and kill myself on crack?
Amanda says: (12:26:54 AM)
how about NOT KILLING YOURSELF ON BLEEDINGCRACK??????????????????
Amanda says: (12:26:56 AM)
please dont.
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:27:11 AM)
haha. okay
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:27:13 AM)
i wont!
Amanda says: (12:27:17 AM)
liar
Amanda says: (12:27:27 AM)
you're supposed to be a saint nowwww!!!!!!
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:27:29 AM)
um. i MIGHT smoke tomorrow. but im not sure
Amanda says: (12:27:32 AM)
dont kill yourself on crack
Amanda says: (12:27:42 AM)
dont even START with freaking crack!!!!!!!!!!!!!
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:27:45 AM)
saint? when my bf has successfully gotten with someone else
Amanda says: (12:27:48 AM)
and you're going to the doctor's tmrw
Amanda says: (12:27:56 AM)
do you really want to smoke???
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:27:59 AM)
oh yes. the doctor. who will do an x ray
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:28:06 AM)
not really. but smoking gets me by
Amanda says: (12:28:17 AM)
ishhh...
Amanda says: (12:28:22 AM)
i'm telling derrick.
Amanda says: (12:28:39 AM)
like. right now.
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:28:46 AM)
you dont have his email account
Amanda says: (12:29:01 AM)
yeeeesshh, i doooooo
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:29:13 AM)
EW
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:29:14 AM)
why?
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:29:16 AM)
heh
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:29:18 AM)
im kidding
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy has been added to the conversation.


-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:29:20 AM)
you can tell him
Amanda says: (12:29:34 AM)
cos you bleeding gave it to me
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:29:50 AM)
apa hal?
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:30:01 AM)
hi derrick
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:30:19 AM)
hey
Amanda says: (12:30:51 AM)
yeah.
Amanda says: (12:31:05 AM)
do you support smoking when you're depressed?
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:31:12 AM)
yes
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:31:22 AM)
NO!!!
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:31:25 AM)
philippa...
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:31:33 AM)
yes derrick?
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:31:47 AM)
u support smoking when u r depressed?
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:31:57 AM)
yes i do
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:32:27 AM)
why?
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:32:31 AM)
why is that so?
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:33:26 AM)
because. smoking is sangat bagus
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:33:38 AM)
isnt there a word to make that shorter. like terbagus or something
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:33:53 AM)
something wrong with u
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:34:07 AM)
no. im fine
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:34:07 AM)
u r not the philippa that i know
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:34:14 AM)
sorry
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:34:34 AM)
the only other philippa you know is phillipa gregory. whose the writer of that book they sell in mph
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:35:38 AM)
derrick. im fine. im a little upset over something that happened.
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:35:53 AM)
so i told amanda that i'll loathe in depression and die on crack
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:35:56 AM)
and then she added you
Amanda says: (12:36:27 AM)
dying on crack isnt an option
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:36:52 AM)
okay
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:36:55 AM)
i wont die on crack
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:36:55 AM)
but
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:37:01 AM)
i was just maybe thinking of smoking
Amanda says: (12:37:04 AM)
no.
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:37:15 AM)
dont smoke man
Amanda says: (12:37:16 AM)
NO. so now you see where the darn problem is????
Amanda says: (12:37:22 AM)
geez.
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:37:22 AM)
smoking is not good
Amanda says: (12:37:28 AM)
hahahahaha
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:37:45 AM)
and that is not God wants u to handle things
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:37:55 AM)
if u cant handle this thing small little things
Amanda says: (12:37:59 AM)
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
Amanda says: (12:38:03 AM)
no.
Amanda says: (12:38:05 AM)
i dont think its small
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:38:13 AM)
like that already u want to go die on a crack or smoke
Amanda says: (12:38:18 AM)
it's pretty big for her
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:38:23 AM)
ur future how u gonna handle things?
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:38:31 AM)
dont talk about being a lawyer la
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:38:38 AM)
what thing that is so big for u??
Amanda says: (12:38:50 AM)
nevermind thennnn
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:39:08 AM)
u hear me philippa?
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:39:12 AM)
no matter whatever it is
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:39:22 AM)
please dont ever smoke and dont ever go into drugs
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:39:30 AM)
thats just not the way of God
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:39:33 AM)
and it's not good
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:39:36 AM)
i am serious
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:39:51 AM)
okay
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:40:04 AM)
lights will guide you homeeeee. :) haha. coldplay
Amanda says: (12:40:12 AM)
hahahahahahahaha
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:40:13 AM)
okay. i understand derrick. i've never done drugs! fyi
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:40:26 AM)
dont even smoke
Amanda says: (12:40:30 AM)
LOL
Derrick Siow The Drummer Boy says: (12:40:33 AM)
u smoke...i wont talk to u anymore i tell u
-PhiL- You're Love Is A Verb Here In My Room says: (12:40:55 AM)
okay


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