Second Guess

I smell bubble gum

I want to dance in the rain.
With a pretty prom dress on.
And not worry of the aftermath.
I want to be so much more than you right now.
I might envy you.
But i hate you so much more.
Your not even a real person
you're so robotic.
its amazing.
as a girl.
you should have emotions
frankly. alot more than a guy
but i'm guessing you have none.
no compassion
nothing. zilch.

I just gave up on a friend.
A true friend.
And it hurt.
No matter how much i may hate him now
I know i will regret it later.

Its true.
I'm full of hatred and emo-ness right now.
But thats what i come with.
So
Deal with it.



This is from Grey's Anatomy:
It's what Derrek said to Merideth

You know what I talked about with the other Grey? All the things this Grey won't let me say.

I want to marry you. I want to have kids with you. I want to build us a house. I want to settle down and grow old with you. I want to die when I'm 110 years old, in your arms. I don't want 48 uninterrupted hours. I want a lifetime. Mmm. Do you see what happens? I say things like that and you fight the urge to run in the opposite direction. It's okay, I understand. I didn't, but now I do, I do. You're just getting started and I've been doing this for a long time now. Deep down, you're still an intern, and you're not ready.



edit: pick me, choose me, love me.

listening to: Carrie Underwood - Ever Ever After

feeling: drenched