" Feed me my fetish in a bowl, and serve a drink straight up, i'm done with being the other side of your deal, now treat me right, and you'll see it work "
Today's a holiday for us.
cause we had the swimming gala yesterday :)
i hardly slept last night
i wish i hadn't stayed up thinking about you
i wish i tossed over
and fell asleep
and had peacefulness for the first time in days
you have this thing about you
that makes you god damn amazing
this weird laugh which comes along with a really low tone which can drive any girl insane. the smile that could light up the world, but the frown that could beat every puppy dog look. the lips that are so irresistible and the precautious signs that your body would give off when you are happy. the amazing hair that has distinct features all by itself. the touch of your hand that could give a girl chills that would last. the smell of your body scent is so tantalizingly beautiful.
why do i lean onto something thats so surreal?
why do i lean on you when you can hardly feel anything with me?
why do i pick you over him right now?
how can you be so new to me but mean more to me than anything else?
how can i be so sure about you even when your not here with me?
how can i want you?
how can you stand me?
how can you bare me?
how can you put me so much pain?
how do i let myself go through this?
how do i live with myself for all this?
how do i do this?
i'm not sure what you do
but whatever you do
you've got me hanging!
he said to me:
you're useless
you're stupid
yet
why?
do i feel this way towards him
why do i feel that blazing connection towards him?
why do i feel like an invalid whenever talking to him.
if pleasing you was something easy
i would have mastered it by now.
i'm so unsure when it comes to you
and i feel like a dumb fuck most times.
yet.
i stick around
more like you do
but i've let you down countless times
and there's no forgetting in that.
my stupidity gets you in trouble
my nerves gets you upset
my frustration gets you pissed off.
how do i not feel the tension?
how do i not feel the paranoia
how do i not feel the pain
how do i miss all the motions when it comes to you.
how come i dont go through the happy notions with you
how do i have weird feelings when it comes to you?
your words ring true
your voice brings harmony
your laughter brings light
your friendliness shows
your kindness has no end
and your harshness rarely appears
how do i pick east from west?
how did i end up with west?
I MISSS JOHN!
cause we had the swimming gala yesterday :)
i hardly slept last night
i wish i hadn't stayed up thinking about you
i wish i tossed over
and fell asleep
and had peacefulness for the first time in days
you have this thing about you
that makes you god damn amazing
this weird laugh which comes along with a really low tone which can drive any girl insane. the smile that could light up the world, but the frown that could beat every puppy dog look. the lips that are so irresistible and the precautious signs that your body would give off when you are happy. the amazing hair that has distinct features all by itself. the touch of your hand that could give a girl chills that would last. the smell of your body scent is so tantalizingly beautiful.
why do i lean onto something thats so surreal?
why do i lean on you when you can hardly feel anything with me?
why do i pick you over him right now?
how can you be so new to me but mean more to me than anything else?
how can i be so sure about you even when your not here with me?
how can i want you?
how can you stand me?
how can you bare me?
how can you put me so much pain?
how do i let myself go through this?
how do i live with myself for all this?
how do i do this?
i'm not sure what you do
but whatever you do
you've got me hanging!
he said to me:
you're useless
you're stupid
yet
why?
do i feel this way towards him
why do i feel that blazing connection towards him?
why do i feel like an invalid whenever talking to him.
if pleasing you was something easy
i would have mastered it by now.
i'm so unsure when it comes to you
and i feel like a dumb fuck most times.
yet.
i stick around
more like you do
but i've let you down countless times
and there's no forgetting in that.
my stupidity gets you in trouble
my nerves gets you upset
my frustration gets you pissed off.
how do i not feel the tension?
how do i not feel the paranoia
how do i not feel the pain
how do i miss all the motions when it comes to you.
how come i dont go through the happy notions with you
how do i have weird feelings when it comes to you?
your words ring true
your voice brings harmony
your laughter brings light
your friendliness shows
your kindness has no end
and your harshness rarely appears
how do i pick east from west?
how did i end up with west?
I MISSS JOHN!
edit: no surprises. no phobia's. no paranoia. no fear. no guilt
listening to: Incubus - Dig
feeling: moody
obsession: monirul!
craving: Cupcakes
I know you'll count on the me from yesterday <3
listening to: Incubus - Dig
feeling: moody
obsession: monirul!
craving: Cupcakes
I know you'll count on the me from yesterday <3
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