Flipped

I'm out of words.
I'm out of lines.
I'm out of jokes
I'm out of rhymes.

I'm hoping that all that i have, is enough, for you tonight!
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Sitting here, watching the droplets of rain cast down onto my window panes i cant help but think of you. Knowing you're somewhere, doing something, i drift in my imagination with the thought of yet another. Up until now, you were the best thing that came around. You still are. But. We've drifted, and like everything else in my life right now, we're messed up.

Your words. Your smile. Your touch. Your kiss. I would give up anything. Just for one of this. Knowing that the time will never be right. Knowing that you're eventually going to give up. Knowing that you'll find someone better. All of this. just crushes me like a stampede of elephants. If there was something i could say, if there was something i could do. I would do it all. Just to get back with you. If there were things that were meant to be said, if there were things tha should have been done differently. I would do it all.

Your the love bomb. Its the best way i can describe you. Love doesn't ooze out of you. But it shouldn't have to. I'm not sure if writing all of this will make you change your mind. I'm not sure if sending you another letter proclaiming my love for you will work. But i want to try.I need to try. I just need you. You're not like the others. Straight talk and shove. You listen, you understand, you compromise.

I have yet to find the reason of why i'm so attracted to you. But i just am. The mere thought of you drives me crazy. The mere sign of you gets me excited. The thrill of you gets me going. You felt that, once, sometime ago. But you did. So you know what this feels like. I'm not sure if i'll ever get through to you. I'm not sure if we'll ever work out again. I'm not sure if this will all be okay. But you mean so much to me. I dont want to have you out of my life, i want you in my life.

I want you to be there for me when i need you. I want you to be there for me when i want you. I want you. And only you. If it means going all out and proving myself to you. I will. Anything just to get you by my side tonight.

Call me deluded. But whatever i feel for you now. Feels as real as it can get.

The same law of attraction applies to us like it did back in early december.

Want me like how i want you. Need me like how i need you. Love me like how i love you.


edit: Distanced by time


listening to: incubus - talk show on mute

feeling: restless



How do you expect me to grow if you wont let me blow? <3>